Toomi Maya

Hmm

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 23:07:08 GMT

I've seen Soushi and Kazuki walking around a lot outside today. Its only been a couple days since Soushi woke up but... well I guess they'll want to spend as much time as possible together huh? To make up for that year of them being apart... Yeah, it makes sense...

((OOC: We need a Canon x.x!! Very very badly!))

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 16:36:22 GMT

I helped Kenji and Sakura with Mamoru's birthday present yesterday. I didn't really want to be there at first, but it helped being around people ^^;; made me less lonely when I went home.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 20:15:47 GMT

I'm so ashamed of myself. Mother hasn't been home at all lately. She called and told me she was going out to diner with Makabe-san and that she'd be home late again tonight. I think I'm just gonna go to go back to bed. I seriously entertained the thought of suicide. >.> Am I really that weak that I can't move on without Kazuki or Shouko?

Yeah...going back to bed sounds really good right now...but I think a walk will do me some good, I just hope I don't run into anybody...

awake

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 01:38:58 GMT

Minashiro-kun woke up today... everyone was happy and excited, me among them. But once I got home I couldnt help but cry...

I don't even know why I cry anymore, it's all so confusing...

sigh

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:46:55 GMT

I took a nap and Shouko was in my dreams again...

Ne, maybe since we were able to bring Minashiro-kun back, it's possible to bring... no, I shouldn;t think like that, it'll only bring sadness.

But we were at her house... she was sitting in bed like always and I was sitting next to her. I was reading her a book and she was leaning on my shoulder... her mother came in and told us I could bring Shouko to the beach because she hadn't been out all day. We played in the water, it seemed really fun...

Then I took her home and put her in bed and I was about to leave when she grabbed my sleeve and said "Don't go, Maya, I don't want to die..."

Then I woke up.

I think this tells me there was something I could've done to prevent her death...

I miss her so much...

Aaah...

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 23:03:32 GMT

I went swimming at the beach today. It's been so hot out I just couldn't take it anymore! I tried calling Kazuki-kun, and Kenji-kun, and Sakura-chan but I couldn't get a hold of anyone so I went alone. It was a bit depressing at first, going to the beach by myself, but once I got into the water I didn't really care.

The water is so clear! You can see all the little fish swimming around so well! I swam around for about an hour or so before I got tired, so I got out and went back home and Mom was there! It seems like I never see her anymore because she's always at work, but she was there! We rented a movie and had some real Mother Daughter time, then she went back to work and told me not to wait for her to get home to eat dinner...

Oh well, she's busy at work so I don't mind. I'll just order out or something...

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 20:20:23 GMT

I don't know when it became so strained between Kazuki-kun and I! I'm surprised I never noticed it before... maybe it's because Minashiro-kun is back, and he's just still in shock about it but... *sigh* I don't know. I went over to his house yesterday and it was just so... strained, we had to work just to keep a conversation going...

I want things to go back to the way it used to be, when Kazuki-kun and I could talk easily without any strain... Nothing will ever be the same, the way it was before the Festum and Fafner...

...I don't want to be lonely anymore...

...

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 17:19:34 GMT

Last night was yet another sleepless night, *sigh* I don't know why, but I keep having dreams about Shouko. Not that I don't enjoy remembering her! She was my best friend for the longest time, but the dreams are always of her death. I can't help but wonder if I could've done anything to stop it... I suppose its pointless for me to worry though, huh? I mean, she's already gone, no one can bring her back...

But somehow we could bring Minashiro-kun back. Or, he came back on his own is a better way of putting it >.> I don't see how this is fair... Shouko...